In doing a research on ethical perception of business, impressed by a term name Machiavellianism which refers to the personality trait of immorality, in which prone to manipulate and exploit others to accomplish one’s goal. Machiavellians appear in confident, glib and arrogant, carrying the attribute of calculating and cynical, priority goal of life is gaining and keeping power. Their belief is clear, power is more important than love.

It inspired me a lot the meaning of Christ in us in sudden. It is the inspiration too for construction of my feeling into form of reason that persist me in Christianity in this 2 years. Yes, I hold on to God because of His theory of love and empathy. I summarize it in point forms of three.

1.) Sin; One of the reason why human creates sin because they
Distrust people, so they reject to behave honesty and taking empathic and personal approach in interaction with others. They don’t believe in human are essentially in good nature and have good intention all the times, and so they choose to believe in power. It is because power gives them the sense of security than love. Term of power here refer to the physical power (violence), status of political and monetary or the standard of worldly achievement. In condition of unconsciously, passion of power pursuit might deprive their conscience and love. Depend on the degree of its impact.

Generally, human behave in distrust a lot of times is because they let fear direct their rationality. There could be the fear of being abandoned or rejected, fear of betrayer, fear of being discouraged, and fear of being discriminated, fear of group-out, fear and fears. May be is because they experienced this fear before or may be they witness someone close to them tortured by this fear resulted experience before. No matter what possibility of reasons, we should pay attention to this injury that is not yet in recovery.
In this condition, love and empathy would be the best medicine.
Hence, God’s theory is the best medicine.

2.) Hope from repentance
The most uncertainty change of a person is if the person carries the attribute of repentance prone. Be careful; don’t judge that kind of person in immediate. Personality in develop every seconds and minutes with the practice of autocriticism.
This repentance of practice is space for God injection us with wisdom or life teaching.

3.) Love God
I felt lost when Christians’ saying of love God .In seeking the meaning of it, I am thinking what is the ways to love God. Serve God? Seek and follow God will? Evangelism? Biblical study? Live in righteousness? I am in confusion. I personally feel that these are the actions that not must the result of Love God, could be the force of fear God or obey God by expectation from surrounding too .Suddenly, there was a word caught my attention while contemplating the meaning of Love God . Oh yes, Empathy. The attribution of one’s own feelings to God. Sensation is the gift for creature beings. Love can be felt in utilization of this gift. Well, it is not easy to have feel with someone of cause, unless in condition that the existence of connection, kind of connection that paying trust and favor for each other. Grace of God touching our heart and life, it is operating by a mean of magnetism, attracting and directing our sensation to Him.Consequently, follow, workship and serve Him with all by heart.That is love God.

My mind was obstructed in apprehend the meaning of friendship. Being seized by a whim, I called my brother for insights and clues. A guy who is younger than me of  5 years old, gave me his basic analysis of the meaning of friendship .I was blessed indeed by this voice afar.  

“ It is common for a people to seek friends in community through someone’s apparent behavior of attribute”… A joke, a smile, a warm hand shake, a friendly eye contact, are giving a sense of approachability and acceptance as encouragement for step forward as a friendship beginning. “The choosing of a friend in beginning is simple, someone SEEMS to fit in with me” 

Well. The meaning of friendship is more than that. Everyone knows that.

 “Reject to behave frankness in intention to protect a relationship” Doubt of each other is common because you can’t speculate the trueness of someone most of the times. In friendship of little interaction, with little information, we use to assume the character of someone immediately in reason of self-protection.   ‘I am surely will not take risk to tease someone who looked fierce, serious, feeling of smallness and bear grudges.’ Dare you? Besides, no one like to be frankness if she cannot surely she will be accepted. Eg: “I am a failure, I am very poor, I am liar, I am a sinner… so shame of me. We doubt we will not be accepted as the true face of us. We hide, we pretend, we doubt because we have no TRUST of people will accept us with LOVE of forgive, considerate and understanding. In fact, barrier of trust is stick to every relationship despite of time range and blood of connection. Because we unable to truly understand in someone? God never ask us to be wise and intellectual in order to understand everything and every people heart. But He ask us to hold on the innocent heart of LOVE. With love, there is  no doubt, no blame, no rejection, no immediate assumption, no judgment…..1 Corinthians :13

“Mask ourselves with smile even hatred in heart, pretend of no grudge even war yesterday” In reality, hypocrite is necessary for perceivable peace of world. We have to learn to be a good pretender for world peace of systematic flow. We have to mask ourselves in name of politeness and respect. Want to be real? Let’s cast away the hatred, doubt, disagreement and behave in sincerity. How? Refer to love, the source of energy to forgive and passion to considerate. How to love? Refer to Jesus Christ. Rationality will tradeoff the innocent heart of believe, the faith in Christ, the faith in power of Love. Rationality makes us make comparison with each other, differences and status determination. As the day Adam and Eve ate the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil (discretion), the tradeoff was running, sinning was roaring …Make this consciousness balances our faith with reality. As Christian, no faith abandon. Reality, we care but with conscience and love.